A..L..O..N..E

sunyi

2012-01-21T10:03:00.000-08:00

haizz..memang boring btul cuti nie..mkn tdo je kerja aku kat bilik..xde benda lain nak buat..tiap-tiap hari tengok movie je..smpi aku pun rasa muak sdh mau tengok movie...nasib baik la..hujung minggu nie dihabiskan dengan sebaik-baiknya..aku plan stay di church..boring ba klu xda buat apa-apa..ba, mau cow dulu..penat owhh setelah 3 round maen UNO td..aku sorang je wakil ump..yg lain semua dr shahputra dan uitm..ba, cow lok...

Gudbye Sis

2012-01-08T22:53:00.000-08:00

Dimana ada pertemuan, disana pasti ada perpisahan.. Skrang sdh mau abis semester, semua urg sdh mula packing brg utk balik tp sy pula ,msh merempat di UMP smbl menantikan saat2x presentation untuk PSM2.. Haiz..boring rasanya duduk di UMP tanpa buat apa2x selama dua minggu..maca, urg gila cja..

Saya bukan mau cerita ttg diri saya la..just mau ucap slamat jalan kepada orang yg rapat dengan saya iaitu, Cynthia George.. Walaupun br kenal dlm masa satu tahun setengah, ianya membawa banyak kenangan antara kami berdua.. Dia adalah sorang pompuan yang mudah tersenyum, ceria dan manja2x ckit ( kdg2x).. Dia umpama adik bg saya dan slalu cja panggil sy "Bro".

Saya harap dia akan baik2x cja selepas ini.. Slamat Jalan Sis..Jaga diri ko baik2x arr..Nanti kita jumpa lagi time sy combocation.. Saya xsabar2x untuk menanti-nantikan saat itu.. Saya mau bawa ko pg mkn di Gambang lg.. bkn stakat mau jumpa ko cja..malah mau jumpa skali adik2x saya yg lain iaitu Fifi dan Elvina..

Saya pun xtau knapa saya mau post ttg kepulangan ko nie.. Kdg2x sy rasa sedih juga nie.. biasala 2 kan perasaan abang terhadap adik..mstila sedih klu adik blk dulu kan..hehehe.. Anyway, gudluck in the future k sis.. Jangan ko nakal2x semasa ketiadaan saya disini.. dan klu boleh, next sem, ko msti rajin2x turun church k.. jgn xturun pula..

Just to let u know, your brother always love u all... I also gonna miss u later... Anyway, May god bless u always in whatever u do k..

LI application

2011-11-12T00:19:00.000-08:00

Wah..beberapa minggu lg..msti kena tempat LI nie..Klu x, merempat di UMp la jwbnya.. Untuk makluman semua, saya br cja selesai hantar surat LI ke 5 company. Harap2x boleh dapat feedback cpt..ndak pyh binggung2x lg tercari2x nie.. Inshya orite..mudah-mudahan dapat..bagi yg xpercaya, anda boleh la tgk gmbr dibawah..tengok jgn x tengok..hahaha..

Ragam Kehidupan

2011-08-04T00:04:00.000-07:00

slamat ngumi...

Nu tih oku yak kongsikan 1 crita d oggi berlaku daang idipku..Sok isok nog ayuh nyek mmg bogo dingan nyek..Watnoh geh 2 oku tih..Dingan oma mmg nyaa d slalu oku bisaya eh 2 slalu nak kira tudu eh..tp adin okon pula koyuh d berlaku..dingan oma nyek mo ponai yak mogo odop nyek..tp odop plak doik puan pasal noh..jok nyek nunak cja..kodda in d nang nyaa nyoma, follow the lead..

Oku tih mmg slalu cja bisaya d nyaa..bukan oni, bg oku,dingan oku yohleh segala-gala..biasa la,doik nyaa d perfect daang dunia tih..suak eh oggi kelemahan..kodda oku geh..asar nyaa mogo oku, susah nyam oku yak bisaya d yoh lg..inohleh d susah oku tih..yak nolon poit,yak toran nyayang plak..biarla..oku doik kisah tiak adin neh,biarla oni d yak berlaku,biar berlaku jek..yang penting oku hepi jek..oku arap ingan buka negeh otin nyaa inoh topa eh..mak gaa adak yoh truskan nai koyuh d watinoh..koyuh tih mo berlanjutan akan menjd "darah dlm duri" in nyaa kirieng..

Black Tie Dinner 10

2010-10-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

Shalom,

lama rasanya xmengisi ruangan blogspot nie..so kali nie nak update ckit..bak kata urg ckit2 lama2 jd bukit..so utk post yg kali nie,semuanya berkenaan dgn dinner IMPROSH pada 14 Oktober 2010..antara perkara yg menarik utk dinner tahun nie ialah selain pemberian anugerah dekan,terselit juga pemberian anugerah tokoh sukan,tokoh kebudayaan,tokoh keusahawanan,tokoh pelajar dan tokoh fakulti..kriteria bg setiap anugerah tokoh adalah mesti cemerlang dlm akedemik dan bergiat aktif dlm setiap kategori yang dipertandingkan..so tgk la gmbr2 prog di atas nie..just gmbr sy sendiri cja tau..haha

Perbuatan..

2010-08-19T17:35:00.000-07:00

Kadang kala apa yang kita harapkan bukan sesuatu yang kita minta dan apa yang kita minta bukan sesuatu yang kita mau..semua ini adalah emosi yang menguasai diri kita, so kita xbole terlalu berharap..kadang-kadang kita msti melepaskan sesuatu walaupun susah..ini bukan cja akan menenangkan hati kita malah memberikan kebaikan kepada kita..

Kadang-kadang kita sendiri pun xtau dan xsedar apa yg kita lakukan..so kita kena ingat apa yg telah kita lakukan..jangan jadikan perkara menjadi duri dalam diri kita sendiri..yang lepas biar la lepas, jadikannya sebagai satu pengajaran buat diri kita kerana ianya membuatkan kita semakin matang untuk menempuh kehidupan yang penuh dengan cabaran dan dugaan ini.

gelisah

2010-02-10T19:27:00.000-08:00

hari ini berasa runsing setiap kali memikirkan apa yang harus aku lakukan pada keesokkan harinya..aku xpasti samada aku msh mampu berdiri utk menempuhi hari2 esok..aku cuba berharap agar keajaiban akan berlaku..
kenapa aku msh teringkatkan si dia..adakah dia seorang cja yg bertakhta di hatiku yang sunyi ini..aku sendiri pun xtau..aku cuba utk mencari pengantinya tapi aku gagal sama skali..apa yg harus aku lakukan oo tuhan?berilah hamba muu nie kekuatan utk menempuhi hari2 esok...
knapa aku msh mau menipu diri sendiri yg aku msh menyayangi dan mencintai dia..meskipun dia org pertama yg bertakhta dihatiku..senyumannya dah wajahnya selalu terlintas di sanubariku..adakah ini petanda dari muu tuhan..
walaupun kami kerap bergaduh atas sebab yg xpasti tp adakah mungkin kami akan bersama di akhirnya..aku sendiri pun xpasti dan xmengerti..oo tuhan,bantulah hamba muu ini,hamba muu ini xbrani berdiri sendirian dan memerlukan petunjuk dari muu..tolonglah oo tuhan..

penat

2010-01-30T23:34:00.000-08:00

Bagiku setiap hari merupakan hari yang memenatkan bagi aku..ada cja benda yg perlu aku lakukan..assignment pun banyak..memang susah..kalau boleh,aku ingin tidur utk seminggu untuk mengembalikan tenagaku dan kekuatanku tetapi apa bole buat..dah menjadi lumrah sebagai seorang pelajar universiti untuk menempuhi apa jua cabaran yang datang..ku harap semangatku untuk berjuang sebagai seorang pelajar tak akan luntur sehingga ke akhirnya..

Belenggu..

2010-01-25T08:47:00.000-08:00

Jam menunjukkan pukul 12.48 pagi,tetapi aku blum tido lagi..Macam biasa la,sibuk menyiapkan assignment2 yang berlambak..sesudah assignment disiapkan,maka masa rilek la sdh..
Dalam suasana yang sunyi,tiba2 terlintas sesuatu di ingatanku..sesuatu yang xdapat aku lupakan..suatu perasaan yang tidak dapat ku ungkapkan dengan kata2..yang membuatkan aku mengimbas kembali kenangan manis dulu..
Ketika mengingatkan hal tersebut,aku mula berasa sedih dan berharap agar semuanya akan menjadi seperti sedia kala namun hakikatnya semua itu adalah palsu2 belaka..masa yang sudah berlalu takkan kembali lagi..macam itulah dengan kehidupan kita,kita takkan dapat apa yang kita miliki macam dulu tetapi yang yang kita perlu lakukan adalah lakukan sebaik mungkin supaya ianya menjadi seperti dahulu..
Sejak akhir2 ini,aku selalu dibelengui perasaan ini..menyebabkan aku makan xlalu,tido xlena..walaupun kami sekadar kawan,tetapi hatiku tetap ingin memilikinya kerana ku sangat cintakan dia..aku xdapat mengungkapkan apa2 yang ada dihatiku ini kerana aku pasti dia xingin aku berperasaan begini terhadapnya..so aku harap agar tuhan berikan aku kekuatan untuk meneruskan hidupku yang penuh dengan panca roba ini..berikan aku kesempatan untuk melupakan segalanya2..biarlah ianya hanya tinggal sejarah dalam diari hidupku..

the truth about ourself

2010-01-24T22:07:00.000-08:00

Accepting the Truth about Ourselves
By Psych Central Staff

Considering the amount of time I spend confessing my mistakes and shortcomings in therapy, I often think the doc missed his true calling. And therapy would definitely be easier if I could step into his office, confess my sins and leave the rest of the work to God until my next session. I’d leave every session cheerfully if it were that simple.

But it isn’t that simple, and the doc doesn’t let me off the hook that easily. He forgives readily, but he doesn’t let me forget that my behavior needs work, so he always seems to have plans to talk about and explore the behavior that led to my latest confession.

I don’t look forward to these conversations, but I have grown accustomed to them, because we have them regularly. Facing the pain that I inflict upon others remains a daunting task for me, primarily because of two nasty little details: I hurt others more often than I care to admit, and it isn’t always unintentional.

It’s the latter detail that often causes me to wince these days, particularly since the person I currently target most often is also the person who’s trying to help me understand and change my behavior: my therapist. And he does not subscribe to the belief that it’s enough simply to recognize when we hurt others, apologize, and try not to do it again. While that’s a good place to start, it is too easy to make promises we don’t or can’t keep, and simply trying not to do it again is a lesson in the illusion of responsibility, neither one conducive to therapy.

It’s easy to say, I won’t or I’ll try not to do it again, and when I’ve made that promise in the past I always intended to keep it. But a lifetime of not understanding my behavior and being caught off-guard by powerful feelings have left me with some serious deficits in impulse control, particularly in my close relationships. Making promises without making serious attempts to understand my actions leaves everyone around me frustrated and angry, so much of my therapy consists of figuring out why I do what I do.

My long-time favorite and usually truthful answer to that question, “I don’t know”, invites my therapist to challenge me as we begin the task of figuring it out together. But I’ve come to appreciate his expectations of hard work, responsibility, and honesty, just as I appreciate his forgiveness and understanding when I make mistakes, because I make plenty of them. That’s a hard-to-beat combination of values, and knowing I can count on him to uphold those values makes facing the truth about myself less formidable.

It is less distressing now, but it still isn’t easy. I am a trauma survivor, and we trauma survivors often blame ourselves for the pain and abuse inflicted upon us, but we generally find it extremely difficult to accept that we too are capable of hurting others. We tend to hold firmly a belief that we are incapable of hurting others due to knowing and experiencing the pain and terror of abuse. This belief is a protective measure, and its primary purpose is to protect us from the threat of identifying with those who abused us. If we can identify with them in
any way, we might be like them, and the last thing a survivor wants to be like is an abuser.

And so, upon realizing a few years ago that I had indeed hurt people, I was quite upset but not as shocked as I thought I would be. In my attempt to protect my self-image as one who would never hurt others intentionally, I reminded myself that we all hurt people inadvertently sometimes, and, pleased with my acceptance of the truth I was content to believe that my behavior, while hurtful at times, was never abusive because it wasn’t intentional. And as long as it wasn’t intentional, there was little I needed to do except try to avoid making the same mistake again. But that acceptance was short-lived, and whatever discomfort I felt at the time paled in comparison to the shock I felt upon my later discovery—that at times I had hurt people intentionally.

I clearly remember the panic I felt when I realized I could not deny, at least to myself, that I had hurt someone intentionally. I was at home at the time, thinking about the work I was doing in therapy, when an incident involving a friend, an incident that I had long since forgotten suddenly found its way back to my memory, instantly shattering my belief that I was incapable of deliberate harm. My heart raced, my hands trembled and my stomach churned. One word flashed through my mind repeatedly: ABUSER.

I wanted to run, I wanted to hide, I wanted to hurt myself—anything to escape. The one thing I did NOT want to do was admit this to my therapist. I was certain that he would hate me, fear me, and reject me. I was terrified by the thought of telling him, but I was equally terrified by the thought of being alone with this secret. After agonizing over it for some time, I finally made a decision, hoping it was the right one but fearing it would be my therapeutic downfall. I
chose to tell him what I had done.

My therapist did none of what I expected when I told him. He didn’t hate me, fear me, or reject me. His compassion was clear and genuine. He not only still cared about me, he praised me for having the courage to face an ugly truth about myself. It was a pivotal moment in my treatment, and I was grateful for his ability to respond with sensitivity and kindness.

Not all trauma survivors are fortunate enough to experience compassion in the face of their own admission of guilt when it comes to hurting someone intentionally. Not all trauma therapists are capable of responding to such admissions with sensitivity and kindness. This is unfortunate, because the truth is that we are all capable of inflicting harm, and the sooner we recognize this fact, the better our chances of understanding and preventing it.

But some therapists react with fear, and though they may try to respond therapeutically to our admissions, as trauma survivors we are quite adept at recognizing both fear and anger in people important to us. We don’t usually miss this; if anything we tend to seize upon it immediately and revise our version of events to minimize the impact on our therapists.

When therapists react with fear, it sets the stage for a therapy with little substance or honesty, sometimes resulting in an elaborate but unproductive game of self-deception for both parties involved. Sometimes therapists minimize the impact of our actions by questioning our actual intent. They sometimes become self-protective, insisting upon behavioral contracts to protect the therapy even in the absence of any threats to our treatment. Others become even more punitive, to the point of outright rejection, insisting that they cannot work with us because they do not feel safe.

Safety, of course, is essential to both client and therapist, and in the presence of behavior that truly threatens either party, it is necessary to take protective action. But it has been my experience, and the experiences of numerous other trauma survivors, that some therapists exhibit a knee-jerk reaction to any perceived threat, real or imagined. I once had a therapist tell me she was frightened of me because of a violent dream I had shared with her. Needless to say, the therapeutic value of that relationship went downhill rather quickly.

But I am far from alone in this experience. Without making a generalized statement based on assumptions, I frequently see some common factors that I believe contribute greatly to therapist fear and to the failure to help us face and understand our own hurtful behavior. Unfortunately, these contributing factors sometimes result in therapy that only touches the surface, or in termination of treatment. In either situation, the possibility of exploring and understanding the harm we inflict upon others is lost.

The first factor, which I encounter often in discussions about trauma therapy on the Internet, is a significant history of trauma and abuse in the therapist’s own life. This is a delicate issue, because of a common belief among both trauma survivors and a number of therapists that
survivor therapists are the best trauma therapists due to their own experiences. I don’t dispute the fact that survivor therapists are probably the most sympathetic therapists due to their own experiences, but sympathy alone does not make one a good therapist.

Though this is not universal, survivor therapists often appear to be more fearful in general, which is not surprising given the neuropsychological complexities of trauma related disorders, and the fact that residual effects of trauma can last for many years. This fear is usually communicated to clients in one way or another despite the therapist’s efforts to conceal it. Its effect is to preclude any real investigation of our own tendencies to lash out at others because we are more likely to hide those aspects of ourselves that we believe our therapist fears or dislikes.

We want to be cared for and liked, and we also have a tendency to be caretakers ourselves, so any indication that our therapist is anxious or upset by something we revealed is likely to be met with a reluctance to disclose such information in the future. This is a problem I encounter frequently on Internet survivors’ forums, and I believe a contributing factor is that survivors who later become therapists often do so before they complete their own therapy, which makes them even more susceptible to vicarious traumatization. This is detrimental to both client and therapist.

A fearful therapist who relies upon dissociation to avoid being triggered by the client’s material is not a better therapist because she has this ability, she is an impaired therapist, and a therapist impaired by dissociation may have crucial lapses in judgment due to a failure to integrate thoughts, feelings, and experiences. She may feel discomfort or fear while conducting therapy with a particular client and believe it is due to an implicit perception of the client’s inner rage when in reality it is due to an unresolved issue of her own. Under those circumstances, any examination of the client’s behavior toward others is likely to be clouded by the therapist’s own issues which she mistakenly attributes to the client.

An additional factor leading to the failure to examine our own hurtful behavior is the misconception that abused girls become adults who internalize their anger and hurt themselves, and abused boys become externalizing adults who hurt others. While there is some validity to this, it is by no means an absolute truth. Yet this belief is perpetuated by survivors, therapists, and society in general and is often presented as an absolute truth. This is a dangerous practice, because it results in a tendency for female survivors and therapists to believe it is not necessary for us to look at the ways in which our behavior might be hurtful to others, and a tendency also to assume that as females, we are different because we do not identify with our abusers, who are commonly males. It offers us some relief because it absolves us of the anguish and shame associated with identification, and it leads us full circle to our original belief that we are incapable of hurting others due to knowing and experiencing the pain and terror of abuse.

But it may also lead to a serious problem: becoming trapped in the cycle of abuse by adopting the role of perpetual victim. It is not at all uncommon for female survivors of childhood abuse to become revictimized as adults. As children, we were not responsible for the abuse and our
options were extremely limited. As adults, however, we often continue to place ourselves in situations and relationships that hold us hostage to those limitations because we don’t believe we play any role in being abused.

But if we look closely at our own behavior in relationships with the help of a good therapist, and we are willing to be honest with ourselves, we usually discover that we make choices which keep us from getting out of the victim role. These patterns of behavior are frequently played out in most, if not all of our important relationships. Many people, abused or not, fail to recognize that in every relationship, even abusive relationships, two people are responsible for what works and what doesn’t work. Unfortunately, when people hear such a statement, they often interpret it as blaming the victim by making her responsible for someone else’s decision to hurt her, but that’s not what it means. It means that two people make independent decisions that impact each other, and if we don’t understand how and why we came to those decisions, we’re likely to use the same approach in another relationship, thus repeating an unsuccessful and harmful pattern of behavior in relationships unconsciously.

When we combine unconscious patterns of relating in ways that cause us harm, with a firm belief that we are incapable of causing harm to others, we have a disastrous mixture, because we then tend to believe that we are as helpless as we were during our childhood. We fail to recognize or feel our anger and rage because anger feels dangerous and threatening to us, but when we don’t feel it, we can’t use it appropriately to protect us from harm.

Anger is a normal human emotion, and if we fail to accept that being the victim of the worst kind of hurt and pain has made us more, rather than less angry, we run the risk of believing that our experiences made us better people because being abused taught us to be gentle and kind. Certainly there is nothing wrong with being gentle and kind, but if we attribute those qualities to being victimized as children, and we do not recognize the depth of our anger and instead see ourselves as incapable of hurting someone else, we cannot be fully human.

In order to be fully human we have to accept that if we are capable of doing good, we are also capable of causing harm. Some people may cause more good than harm, or the other way around, but we are all born with the capacity for both, which is an evolutionary necessity because any organism that’s unable to inflict harm is destined to die out due to its inability to defend itself. We need the ability to cause harm in order to survive. It doesn’t necessarily mean we have to use that ability but we do need to possess it, and we need to recognize it exists because we won’t be able to use something we don’t know we have.

And if we believe we’re unable to inflict harm, if we believe the ability to cause harm does not exist in us, then we are also likely to believe, consciously or unconsciously, that we can’t defend ourselves against harm. If we harbor a belief that we cannot defend ourselves while continuing to place ourselves in unsafe situations and relationships, we remain trapped in the role of perpetual victim.

I believe that the conflict between an unacknowledged desire to hurt others, and the belief that our experiences taught us to be gentle and kind to others may often result in the deepest pain, because those of us who believe we do not want to hurt others often display behaviors characteristic of internalized anger. Suicide threats, self-mutilation, withdrawal and distancing are behaviors that often communicate rage, and that leave others feeling helpless, hurt, frightened and confused. When we deny any intent to harm others by these actions and insist that we are only harming ourselves, we are communicating our refusal to acknowledge and deal with our underlying rage in less destructive ways. Denial of the impact of our behavior on others is often as damaging as the behavior itself.

Therapists who collude with clients to avoid the discomfort of examining hurtful behavior are not being kind, they are being misleading and irresponsible. For our own well-being and that of our significant others, it is necessary to understand and to accept that all human beings are capable of inflicting pain, and that we all do so, whether intentionally or inadvertently. And whether we care to believe it or not, we all inflict pain intentionally at one time or another. Even the name-calling behaviors we learned as young children are intentional attempts to cause pain, because we would not engage in that behavior if we did not want to hurt someone’s feelings.

And therapists who are themselves fearful, for any reason, are of little help to those of us who are often puzzled by and frightened of our own behavior in relationships. Survivors who become trauma therapists before completing their own therapy are not serving anyone’s best interests. It is neither helpful nor altruistic; it is self-serving and potentially damaging. Trauma clients need the calm, steady presence of a therapist who is fully present, not the illusion of a steady presence exhibited by a dissociated therapist. And just as a young, frightened child becomes more fearful if she recognizes fear in her caregiver and protector, trauma clients also tend to have heightened reactions to the perception of fear in a therapist. We often find it very difficult to differentiate between the past and present during periods of intense emotions.

My therapist’s calm demeanor and unwavering presence when I am fearful of my own desires to hurt him during this confusion allow me to feel that rage in safety rather than act on it. This is extremely important to my continuing progress toward healing, because being abused did not teach me to be gentle and kind. Being abused taught me to go to extremes in order to get some needs met. It taught me to hurt others before they hurt me. It taught me to take what I need through boundary-busting behaviors when my attempts to meet needs are thwarted or denied. It taught me to hurt others by disguising anger with humor. Being abused taught me to be angry and distrustful, and it taught me to be especially wary of people who claim to care about me, and this includes my therapist.

Our work together is often difficult, painful and frustrating, and I sometimes wonder which of us suffers more when I reenact the past in our relationship, because that is when I am most likely to want to hurt him in some way. Sometimes I recognize a reenactment before I take aim and fire away, but becoming adept at recognizing reenactments before I act on those feelings takes a lot of practice, and in the meantime I am making a lot of mistakes.

But it’s through those reenactments that I am learning enough about myself to know that my use of humor isn’t always just for fun, it’s often aggressive. Behaviors I once saw as self-protective are actually disguised attempts to retaliate. Discovering personal information about my therapist and sharing it with another client was done with the intent to hurt him, not because I needed someone to talk to.

There is only one thing more difficult in therapy than admitting to intentionally hurtful behavior, and that one thing is admitting it to my therapist when he is my intended victim. There is nothing more painful than facing the one person in my life who consistently shows me kindness and compassion, even in my worst moments, and confessing to an action meant to cause him pain. But there is nothing I need more in therapy than the opportunity to be who I am, to let my therapist know me, to let him into my life during my worst moments as well as my best.

His refusal to give up, his ability to see beyond the difficulties I have in our relationship, and his continued compassion when I am at my worst help me find the courage to admit my hurtful actions to myself and to him, to face the pain I inflict upon others when I do not understand my own pain. My therapist’s expectation of honesty is not something I am expected to give to him — it is a gift he has given to me.

Rintihan hidup..

2010-01-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

Sesungguhnya sesuatu yang bermula akan berakhir juga akhirnya.Itulah takdir dan sesuatu yang tidak dapat kita ubah..kadang2 kita lebih mengejar sesuatu yang tidak pasti..kerana ingin mengejar,kita sanggup berkorban untuknya tetapi adalah kita sedar tindakan kita itu umpama menjolok sarang tebuan.sekiranya kita masih masih leka maka kita akan sentiasa dibayangi olehnya..
Jika inginkan kejayaan,pasti usaha yang gigih perlu dicurahkan.kadang2 walaupun sesuatu yang kita mau kita xdapat tapi kita akan berasa puas kerana kita kecapi semua itu dengan usaha sendiri.
Apabila kita leka ataupun dibayangi oleh sesuatu,sedarlah dan kembalilah ke pangkal jalan.Walaupun kita jauh diperantauan, ingatlah orang tersayang.walaupun mereka jauh dari kita,ketahuilah bahawa mereka akan menyayangi kita dengan seadanya.
Kepada mereka yang sudah jauh sesat dari jalan sepatutnya,sedarlah dan kembalilah ke pangkal jalan.Jangan jadikan sikap ego diri menguasai pemikiran kerana buruk padahnya.Ingatlah kawan2 adalah orang yang rapat dengan kita so kalau ada apa masalah,berkongsilah dengan kawan.manala tau kawan boleh tolong selesaikan permasalahan itu..

The experience of Love

2010-01-15T09:03:00.000-08:00

JOHN (The Apostle....The Disciple "whom Jesus loved"....Last to die of the Apostles reputably in Ephesus as a very old man)
"Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.No-one has ever seen God, but if we love one another, God lives in us and His love is made complete in us......God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God and God in him.In this way love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgement, because in this world we are like Him.There is no fear in love because perfect love drives out fear...."

JESUS (The Christ or Messiah....Crucified by the Romans in Jerusalem nearly 2000 years ago at the age of about 31....Jerusalem was literally raised to the ground some 40 years later leaving only what is now called the Wailing Wall partly standing)
"My prayer is not for them alone.I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you have given me, that they may be one as we are one. I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them EVEN AS YOU HAVE LOVED ME...."
"DO NOT BE AFRAID....I am with you to the end of Time."

words of Sadi

2010-01-15T08:59:00.000-08:00

The children of Adam are limbs of one body
Having been created of one essence.
When the calamity of time afflicts one limb
The other limbs cannot remain at rest.
If you have no sympathy for the troubles of others
You are not worthy to be called by the name of "man."

Azam 2010..

2010-01-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

Tahun sudah bertukar,jadi usaha pun dilipatgandakan untuk mencapai kejayaan..sesungguhnya semester yang lepas pointer turun ckit namun aku xakan mengalah sebelum aku membawa balik segulung ijazah buat mummyku..ku ingin sekali mendapat anugerah dekan yang lama2 ku nanti..jadi semester kena lebih gigih,fokus dan rajin la..haha..
Perkara2 yang lepas lupakan bak kata pepatah buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih..walaupun banyak perkara berlaku sebelum nie, tapi hidup mesti diteruskan..yang lepas biarlah lepas dan mulakanlah semester baru dengan azam baru,senyuman dan kegigihan..sesungguhnya tuhan itu maha adil,jadi bagi yang rajin berusaha pasti mendapat berkat darinya..chaiyok2 dan gudluck semua...

Diari hidupku..

2009-12-05T20:45:00.000-08:00

Tanggal 9 November 2009 merupakan hari yang menyedihkan bagi aku..Pada hari tersebut aku telah kehilangan seorang kawan yang paling aku sayangi iaitu girlz..pada hari tersebut, persahabatan antara kami berdua telah putus disebabkan oleh sesuatu yang tidak dapat dikenalpasti..tidak siapa yang akan menyangka semuanya akan jadi begini..sepanjang hidupku ini,ini adalah kali pertama aku memutuskan persahabatan dengan seseorang yang amatku sayangi .sebelum ini aku pernah putus cinta tetapi tidaklah seperit yang aku alami sekarang..oleh itu,kadang2 aku akan menangis bila terkenangkan apa yang berlaku antara kami berdua..dulu semuanya indah dengan kenangan tetapi kini semuanya musnah disebabkan buah mulut orang..
Aku mula mengenali girlz ketika semester 2..walaupun baru kenal pada masa itu, tapi hubungan kami amat akrab. Aku berasa senang sekali ketika bersamanya..aku rindu dan suka melihatnya tersenyum..nampak cute..bagiku, senyumannya adalah suatu hadiah yang indah sebagai kawannya..oleh sebab itu,aku amat menghargai hubungan antara kami..oleh itu, aku sentiasa melakukan sesuatu yang tidak menyakitkan hatinya..kenangan antara kami begitu banyak sekali sehinggakan orang lain berasa cemburu melihat kami berdua..
Semakin lama kenal, maka timbullah perasaan cinta aku terhadapnya..walaupun aku cintakan girlz tetapi aku tidak meluahkannya sebab aku takut persahabatan kami tergugat gara2 rasa cinta aku terhadapnya..oleh itu,aku mengambil keputusan untuk cuba memendamkan cja perasaanku itu..namun tidak ku sangka2 bahawa dia tahu bahawa aku mencintainya..dia memberitahuku bahawa dia sudah ada boyfriend..dia suruh aku berjanji sesuatu dengannya..dia menyuruhku mencintai dia sebagai seorang kawan rapat dan bukannya sebagai kekasih..aku xtau samada dia ada kekasih ataupun tidak ..dan aku menghormati keputusannya..dan melayannya sebagai seorang kawan atas permintaannya..
Ketika cuti H1N1,dia telah jatuh sakit kerana kekurangan darah..dia dimasukkan ke Hospital Huala Lumpur untuk rawatan lanjut..aku sendiri tidak tahu yang dia jatuh sakit..sebaik cja aku mengetahuinya,aku terus bersms dengannya untuk bertanya khabar..13 ogos yang lepas merupakan hari yang malang baginya kerana terpaksa menyambut birthday dalam keadaan yang belum sembuh sepenuhnya..
Pada 15 ogos 2009, dia memberitahuku bahawa dia ingin pulang ke ump dan rindu ingin masuk ke kelas..aku berasa risau melihat dia pulang sendiri menggunakan bas jadi aku pergi mengambilnya sendiri di Kuala Lumpur bersama Billy dengan Michelle..kami bertolak dari ump pada pukul 1.00 petang dan sampai di Kuala Lumpur pada pukul 4.30 petang..aku menggunakan kereta cousinku,Jonnis..masa itu aku tidak berfikir banyak kerana aku amat risaukan keselamatannya,jadi aku rela pergi mengambilnya daripada membiarkan dia balik sendiri menggunakan bas..kami sampai di ump kira2 pada pukul 10.00 malam..semakin hari semakin beransur pulih dia.. syukurlah dengan berkat tuhan akhirnya dia telah sembuh..
Segala-galanya yang aku lakukan untuknya bukanlah dengan tujuan ataupun maksud tertentu..segala-gala yang aku lakukan adalah secara ikhlas..selama ini aku memang selalu menolongnya secara ikhlas..apabila dia memerlukan bantuan,aku tidak teragak2 dan sedaya upaya menolongnya..kalau aku boleh tolong,aku akan tolong..macam aku tolong kawan2 yang lain juga..disebabkan hubungan kami yang rapat dimata orang lain,jadi kami selalu jadi buah mulut orang dan mereka selalu pertikaikan hubungan kami berdua..ramai yang menyangka kami adalah pasangan kekasih sedangkan kami hanyalah kawan rapat cja..
Sejak akhir- akhir ini, banyak khabar angin yang pelik tentang kami tersebar ke sana sini.. banyak orang mengumpat dan mempersoalkan hubungan kami..even classmate kami pun menyatakan benda yang sama..ini menyebabkan girlz berasa tidak senang hati..pada mulanya dia dapat bersabar dengan karenah orang lain tetapi akhirnya dia tidak dapat bersabar..walaupun aku cuba memberi penjelasan tetapi tiada gunanya kerana dia xmau mendengarnya..dia berasa sakit dengan aku..dia memberitahu aku bahawa aku selalu memberinya tekanan dalam kelas..aku berasa hairan tentang hal ini kerana dia jarang menegur aku dalam kelas..dia lebih suka menegur orang lain berbanding aku..apakah salahku di mata muu girlz?..adakah aku begitu hina sekali sehinggakan kau menyatakan aku memberikan kau tekanan padahal aku hanya duduk diam dalam kelas..knapa baru sekarang kau baru mengatakan aku sedemikian sedangkan dulu kau tidak ambil kisah masa kita masih rapat dan digelar kawan..malah dulu kau lebih suka bergurau dengan aku..
Selepas itu,dia menuduh aku memberitahu orang lain yang kami berdua adalah couple..dia juga menyatakan bahawa aku memberitahu kawan2ku yang dia suka aku..aku tidak menafikannya kerana aku tidak pernah berbuat begitu..bagi aku,jikalau aku cintakan dia,aku tidak perlu memberitahu orang lain..orang yang aku patut luahkan perasaan cintaku adalah pada dia cja..memanglah senang mengatakan I Love U..tetapi bukan mudah untuk mengungkapkan dan menyatakannya didepan gadis yang kita cintai..aku bukanlah lelaki yang suka mengungkapkan kata2 cinta sesuka hati..aku hanya akan mengungkapkan kata cinta didepan gadis yang aku cintai cja tetapi ianya mestilah melalui pertimbangan dan tindakan aku sendiri..aku seorang yang berpendirian,girlz..sekiranya aku ada buat salah,aku perlukan bukti untuk setiap kesalahanku..aku tidak suka dengan cara kau yang suka menuduhku dengan benda yang bukan2 yang tidak aku lakukan dan aku tidak akan mengaku sehingga kau memberikan aku bukti yang nyata..
Selain itu juga, dia menuduh aku suka memutarbelitkan cerita lalu melabelkan aku sebagai orang yang hipokrit..dan dia turut menyatakan bahawa dia tidak mahu berkawan dengan orang yang hipokrit..dia kata kalau ingin berkawan,berkawan secara jujur..aku menegaskan bahawa aku bukanlah orang yang hipokrit..aku cuba memberikan penjelasan namun tidak dilayan..malah dia berkata jangan ganggu saya lagi selepas ini..
Adakah semua ini salah aku ,girlz?..knapa kau xmau mendengar penjelasan aku terlebih dahulu..aku sangat mempercayai kau tetapi mengapakah kau masih tidak percaya padaku walaupun sedikit..adakah semua yang aku lakukan untuk kau selama ini tidak bermakna bagi muu..buat masa ini, aku hanya inginkan penjelasan dari muu dan aku ingin tahu siapakah yang memberitahu kau tentang perkara2 yang tidak betul ini..aku sendiri blurr..janganlah kau membuat aku tertanya2 lagi..kau slalu kata kau dah kenal siapa aku yang sebenarnya tetapi nampaknya kau masih belum kenal aku dengan sepenuhnya..kau juga kata aku orang pelik padahal semua kita adalah sama juga disisi tuhan..aku inginkan kebenaran dari kau,girlz..itu saja.jikalau kau memutuskan persahabatan kita gara2 aku cintakan kau..itu merupakan tindakan yang tidak berasas..aku menyusun jari meminta maaf seandai aku ada buat salah dengan kau selama ini..girlz..aku mengungkapkan semua ini bukanlah bermaksud untuk menyakiti hati muu tetapi aku melakukannya kerana aku sayang pada muu dan aku ingin mengekalkan hubungan kita sebagai kawan..jikalau kau fikir tindakan kau ini adalah betul maka aku pun xdapat berbuat apa2 lagi2..mungkin inilah takdir antara kita berdua..aku harap kau akan sentiasa bahagia..selain itu,aku akan slalu berdoa supaya tuhan memberikan kesihatan yang baik kepada kau..semua ini aku lakukan kerana aku masih menganggap kau sebagai kawan..akhir sekali,goodbye kawanku dan jagalah diri baik2 k..may god bless always..

Mengapakah ini terjd....

2009-10-10T05:59:00.000-07:00

Sdh 3 semester aku mengenali muu tp perhubungan kita mcm kita br mengenali semlm..aku xtau apa yg terjadi antara kita..apa yg mampu aku lakukan adalah berdiam cja..sesungguhnya kenangan manis antara kita begitu indah namun semuanya musnah begitu cja..aku pun xtau dan xfhm kenapa kita jd begini..mungkinkah kita misunderstanding antara satu sama lain ataupun sebaliknya..hanya tuhan cja tau akan persoalan ini..wlpn kita amat rapat dahulu,tp mungkinkah kita jd begini disebabkan gosip2 antara kita..mungkin inilah penyebab kita menjd begini..knapa xda rs percaya sesama kita sendiri..sesungguhnya setiap perhubungan dibina dr kepercayaan dan persahabatan..aku sgt percaya kpd muu tp adakah dikau juga percaya kpd ku..skrang ini kita jarang berckp,adakah ini yg kau inginkan..aku xmau kita jd begini..yg aku maukan hanya kita menjd rapat dan akrab spt dulu..klu bole kita perlu berbincang utk menyelesaikan mslh ini..aku rs sedih krn kita jd begini..akhir skali,aku berharap tuhan akan memberkati perhubungan kita sehingga ke akhir hayat..Amen..

Terlanjur cinta..

2009-08-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

Hi semua..sy mau promosikan satu lagu nie..tajuk lagu 2..terlanjur cinta yg dinyanyikan oleh rossa dan pasha ungu..klu kalian ingin ketahui lebih lanjut ttg lagu nie..dgr la lagu 2 k..sambil dgr,renung2kan la dan selami la setiap lirikya..konform anda semua akan tahu ttg mksdnya..
lagu nie akan membuatkan kita rasa ketahuan ttg diri kita..wish u all the best..gudluck ya..hehe..

H1N1

2009-07-29T18:46:00.000-07:00

huhu...dah 2 hari demam..dah mkn ubat pun xbaik2 lg nie..aben n ronald pun sakit juga..takutla..takut kena H1N1..huhu..kpd sesiapa yg demam,batuk2,xsedap bdn dan byk gejala lain,sila berjumpa la dgn doctor k utk mendptkn rawatan..nasib baik ump msh blum ada kes H1N1,kalau x,kena kuarantin la kita semua..utk pengetahuan semua,USM dgn UNIKL dah ditutup
utk satu minggu sbb ada kes H1N1..sian Jeremy..entah apa jd dgn dia skrang..klu dia msh stay kat UMP,tak dia kena kuarantin selama 10 hari..apa pun..may god bless him..semoga dia chat2 slalu dan begitu dgn kami satu bilik nie..sy hrp kami dpt sembuh dgn cpt..mau pg klas..doakan kami k..

Kenangan

2009-07-21T04:56:00.000-07:00

Sudah 3 minggu aku di ump namun aku masih teringat akan kampungku di Bau,Sarawak.Namun,apakah daya ku,hasratku tidak kesampaian selagi belum cuti semester menjelang.Hatiku perih dan rindu memikirkan kenangan dikampung.Walaupun banyak godaan dan halangan namun hatiku tetap tenang dan tabah menghadapinya..Adakah aku akan terus tabah di Ump..hanya tuhan cja yang tahu jawapan bagi persoalanku ini.
Selain itu,aku sangat merindui si dia yang memberikan aku seribu kenangan.Namun,aku tak berdaya untuk memdampingi dan menyayangi muu slalu kerana si dia sudah berpunya.Apa yang aku dapat lakukan hanyalah melihat dan menatap wajahnya yang manis itu dari jauh.Ku ingin menegurnya slalu namun ku xterdaya.Mungkin itulah kelemahan aku dan ku hanya dapat memohon seribu kemaafan dari si dia.Semoga tuhan memberkati kami dalam apa jua yang kami lakukan.AMEN..

2morrow is my last day at ump..

2009-04-26T02:02:00.000-07:00

Hmm..just one day left..2morrow I will leave ump n go back to sarawak..I'm very excited to go back..I really miss my village, my family,my friends n my motorbike.hehe..Myb I fullfill my time with a job after this..don't worry, I will forget u all..that is my promise..

To those which is staying at ump,take care guys n hopefully we will meet again next semester k..If I have done something which is wrong, I feel sorry and I hope u guys will forgive me in whatever I have done b4 this..

To someone that I know n importance to me..take care k..love u guys ..we will meet again at next semester..I will miss u all..gud luck everyone...daaaaaaaaa.........

Cinta dan Senyuman

2009-04-25T19:59:00.000-07:00

Cinta yang semalam
Membuatkan ku tak lena memejamkan mata ini
Senyumannya mekar sayu dilubuk hati
Yang gersang cinta sejati

Ku menoleh melihat ukiran senyuman yg terpancar
Diwajahnya yang ayu
Terbuai dalam mimpiku
Kasih yang dicari
Sudah ku temui

Bagai setahun aku menanti saat ini
Untuk berjumpa kekasih idaman
Ku pejamkan mata ini
Melihatnya sedalam-dalam hatiku

Ku rasa dirinya secocok
Denganku
Matanya membuai layu menerjah ke ruang
Legar benak otakku

Senyumannya mengukir seribu persoalan
Adakah ini cinta atau mainan
Ku hanya menunggu saat bersama
Bersatunya hati bertakhtakan kasih sayang

Yang dahulunya ku inginkan
Sekarang ku temui
Cinta seorang insan
Yang bernama Gadis

Kisah hidupku bersamanya
Ku potretkan dalam bingkai hatiku
Yang kukuh
Takkan goyah dipukul ombak rindu

Itulah cinta yang ku idamkan
Bukan untuk setiap masa tp untuk setiap saat
Ku harap kita dapat bersama
Untuk selama-lamanya

Kau Yang Terindah

2009-04-23T17:35:00.000-07:00

Sebuah ungkapan cinta
Ku ukir di hati yg gersang ini
Ku jaga
Ku simpan
Dan ku abadikanbersama jiwaku

Kepada kau yg terindah
Dengarlah dan tenunglah bicaraku
Kau ku pertahankan
Cintaku buat mu
Kau ku abadikan
Kenangan mesra yg kau bina bersamaku

Andai tiada lg bicara cinta dr hatimu
Aku redha
Aku pasrah
Namun
Setitis air mataku yg mengalir keranamu
Bisa menjadi saksi ketulusan cintaku
Bisa menjadi saksi kejujuran hatiku

Kepada kau yg terindah
Lihatlah lirikan mataku
Yang sentiasa mencari bayangmu
Pandanglah tarian bicaraku
Yang seringkali mengungkap kata rindu
Dan mengertilah hembusan nafas dr jiwaku
Yang membawa seribu tafsir cinta buatmu

Kepada yg terindah
Mengertilah
Aku masih merindu
Aku kian menunggu
Merindu saat indah tika bersamamu
Menunggu kau kembali ke pangkuanku

P/s: sajak ini bukanlah realiti,ianya adalah rekaan semata-mata..dr sy..Ery

Bekelah..April 17

2009-04-19T11:41:00.000-07:00

On 17 th April 2009,my friends and me go to Bekelah Waterfol.We are using three car to go to that place..We "bertolak" from UMP at 10.00 a.m and arrived Bekelah Waterfol at 11.15 a.m.Kami pegi Bekelah bukan krana apa,gara2 xda air kat ump..jd terpaksalah kami pegi mandi kat bekelah...During our trip..byk mslh yang telah dihadapi..salah satu masalah tersebut ialah kereta kancil yg dipandu oleh aben xbrapa chat..myb pemilik kreta 2 msh blum servis kreta..ptt la lambat mcm kura2..haha..masalah kedua ialah kreta yg dibook cade lambat sampai dan dia xtau dimana bekelah..2 pun satu masalah juga..I need to rush..terpaksa antar aben n the geng first to bekelah..lps 2 pergi tunggu si cade kat bus stop matrik pahang..But at the end..berjaya juga kami sampai kat bekelah..tp br sampai kat tmpt parking kreta jak..lps 2 kami terpaksa berjalan kaki meredah hutan ke tempat air terjun..wau..penat ohh..berjalan kaki slama 30 minit mmg memenatkan ditmbh dgn menyusuri batu2 yg licin dan bukit yg curam..takut2...huhu..hmm..dibawah nie ade gmbr 2 time kat bekelah..kpd sesiapa yg blum pernah pegi,pegi la k..rugi klu xpegi..cantik tmpt 2..hehe..

wah..hebatkan air terjun nie..hehe..

semua tunjukkan aksi masing2.haha..

sabar nald..nie bkn gelanggan gusti..kasihan thinesh..huhu..

aksi terjunan dari diana..wakil dr miri..

posing together setelah penat berenang..

peter n diana..mcm pinang dibelah 2...phewitt..

teka sapa paling kuat!!!

sumandak2 ump..pilih mana yg kiut n cantik..haha..

wajah2 org yg kepenatan...

nie la group2 kami,12 org semuanya..

Memang seronok ketika bermandi-mandi tp last2 semua kena sunburn..kasihan btul..xpa kena sunburn yg penting kita enjoy berenang dan bersuka ria utk satu hari..lagipun xda air kat ump..hmm..kami bertolak pulang dr bekelah pd kul5.25 ptg..kami singgah d kedai cina kat gambang utk makan sasau selepas 2..selepas mkn,kami trus balik ke ump..

study2x

2009-04-12T18:36:00.000-07:00

shalom...
gudmorning..
hopefully u all always happy during this week..
i know that this week is study week so study smart n gudluck k..
Throw out tension and enjoy study k..
until now i never start study for my final exam..
this is bcoz my body is here but my heart still at home..
i hope i can start study today..
without any "gangguan"
i hope u guys had prepare for final exam k..
don't be like me k..
be like yourself
n may god bless u always in whatever u do..

Oku nyayang muu..

2009-04-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

tiap2 onu oku pukul moih,
mokat pukul moih rasuk msj muu,
komut milus jipon,
rasuk od mamuh,
birangkonu oku alit natong muu,

c/o
oni wat muu brubah,
oni wat salahku,
paguh muu trus terang sak ku puan,
oni wat muu brubah,
oni wat salah ku,
wlpn oku suka muu,

disah negeh muu ngin alasan d oku,
oku pun puan oni d blaku d punuok ku,
oni wat muu nai watih d oku,
monam otinku krana muu,
sbb oku nak kira ku d muu,

oku doik dpd ngerima,
d terjd adin,
oni wat muu nai oku watih,
sape adak oku jd nyaa d gila,
gila kajon muu sygku..

hak cipta terpelihara-Ery09

Oku yak parik!!

2009-04-06T23:13:00.000-07:00

Adin supiah taruh minggu lagi,doik sabar nyam asongku yak parik kupua.hehe..oku moh ready tiak tih,moh cdia brg..kajon masa yak parik cja.huhu..sebelum oku parik,oku perlu mit test diok..nog adin oku aruak doik blajar oni2,akan malas bonar oku dati..jok ponai man 2 kaso dayung cja..tp itih leh adat dunia,asar nyek doik kaso dayung,osi mei nyaa d yak kaso ku neh..hehee..best geh pigidipku d ump tih, bogo dingan,bogo sumandak 2 slalu bloyar cja..hahaa..oku arap nyaa d bokon doik nunak koyuh d nai ku dati.hehe..kodak in d nang kaleng..watki wat ku tanon nudu muu..oh bunga kupua d slalu og daang otinku,d slalu ku natong 2 rindu..doik dayung doik rami pigidip..itihleh oku..haha..

yahoo!!! doik sabar yak parik tiak tih.haha..

oku arap oku og piluang main snoker mokuo tih..d kuching br murah kan yak main snoker..dati..maal aluak..kabuak duit cja.haha..

itihleh oku..hehe..og gaya sit main snoker do.haha..

My bad day

2009-03-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone..
Today is my bad day.Actually i got 2 test for today.This two give me a lot of tension.My first test is Japan test.As i thought, i can't finish answer the question but at the end i can score half marks for my Japan language.I'm feel very sad because i can't get a high marks.huhu..I hope i can get at least B for Japan.My second test is Grammar test for Technical Writing subject.I don't know that my class is early today because yesterday Mr Suriya had told us that our class is start at 10.45 a.m.Because of that, i'm late to go to class and i had only 20 minutes to finish my test.I was very tension when answer the paper because other already finish answer the question while i just started answer the question paper.At the end, i finish answer my question paper with extra time.I hope that my answer is correct and i can get B result for this subject.My god bless me always in whatever i do..

Tension2..

2009-03-25T19:42:00.000-07:00

What i surppose to do right now?
Please give me the answer so i know what i should do right now..
Exactly,my operation test is today but have been pospond for tomorrow..
That give me a lot of tension..huhu..
I study at hole night..
but what i get..
just getting tired and brings more stress..
This is unfair to me..
I'm feel not in good condition today,
Perhaps, i should prefer to sleep..
but i couldn't sleep..
What i should do babe?
huhuhu..
I'm wasting my time today..
don't know what to do..
I think better i watch movie..
to realease my emosion and stress..
see u guys..
hehehe

Mengutus Rindu

2009-03-25T19:17:00.001-07:00

Kasih..
Ku sangat merindui muu,
Dikala aku kesepian selalu,
Namun segalanya adalah mimpi2,
Kerana dikau telah berpunya..
Aku pasrah dan akur akan suratan takdir,
Mungkin kita tidak ditakdirkan bersama,
Untuk selamanya..
Walaupun aku sangat menyayangi muu,
Namun aku reda dengan apa yang berlaku,
Tetapi ini tidak menghalang aku merindui muu selalu,
Bukan untuk setiap hari tapi untuk setiap saat..
Walaupun kita tiada kesudahan yang pasti,
Namun aku menjadi teman rapat muu.
Yang akan sentiasa membantu muu,
Walaupun perkataan" tidak" terkeluar dari mulut muu,
Aku takkan menyesal kerana aku sudah lakukan apa yang sepatutnya..
Sesungguhnya hanya tuhan saja yang tahu akan kesudahan kisah kita..
Jadi ku harapkan kesudahannya baik
Supaya aku ada alasan untuk merindui muu selalu..

p/s; ini adalah rekaan semata-mata,tiada kaitan samada yang hidup ataupun mati.
Hak cipta terpelihara,Ery09

Who is Priyanka Chopra?

2009-03-25T19:09:00.000-07:00

Chopra at the launch of the Filmfare magazine.

Priyanka Chopra, born July 18, 1982 is an Indian film actress and former Miss World, who acts in Bollywood films.

After winning the title of Miss India World and later becoming Miss World 2000, Chopra made her acting debut with the Tamil film Thamizhan (2002). The following year, she made her Bollywood debut with Anil Sharma's The Hero: Love Story of a Spy and had her first commercial success with her second release, Andaaz from the same year, for which she won a Filmfare Best Female Debut Award. Becoming the second woman to win the Filmfare Best Villain Award for her critically acclaimed performance in Abbas-Mustan's Aitraaz (2004), Chopra later went on to deliver commercial success with films like Mujhse Shaadi Karogi (2004), Krrish (2006), her biggest commercial success so far, and Don - The Chase Begins Again (2006). In 2008, Chopra earned the Filmfare Best Actress Award for her performance in Fashion, thus establishing herself as a popular actress.

Today News

2009-03-24T23:07:00.001-07:00

Hmm..today is my hard day because my class finished at 1.00 p.m.I feel very tired today.Perhaps, i have 2 important test tomorrow, ethnic relation test and operation test.I don't ready and prepare yet for exam tomorrow but i hope i can prepare at this night.Hopefully, i will do my test as good as possible tomorrow.Back to our topic at this morning, actually i wake up at 6.30 a.m.After that, i prepare myself to go to class. I'm walk from my room at 7.45 a.m. Today used my new clothes to go to class..i will show u the picture on what we do at our class today..hehe..

It's me,Ery..haha..

nice posing with my 2 bonzer.hehe..

Jaq wearing my spake!! She stole it from me.huhu..

My best friend,Jimmy..Behind him is Cheng..

My classmates

P/s : we will meet againt in another stories..hehe..

Baton Rouge Beyond Capacity

2009-03-24T08:40:00.000-07:00

I have never seen this many people in Baton Rouge. I imagine that this is the modern day version of the boom towns during the gold rush, except this time it is the search for basic necessities that have driven people here. The truth of the matter is that Baton Rouge will not be fully functional until people are able to move back down to Kenner, Metairie and New Orleans to start cleaning up (one more down there means one less here). The infrastructure is stretched thin and we are still not 100% on electricity here. I spent a hour and a half trying to find gasoline this morning. I just needed a little gas to cut my lawn and top off my gas tank. After checking at a dozen stations and then waiting in a line only to have the gas run out in front of me, I decided that my yard could wait. Quite frankly I don't care to cut my lawn anyway. People have remained civil and I think that after the hoarding has subsided there will be a few more of the basic around. It all just takes time and that isn't something that people want to wait on right now. What will the new reality for Baton Rouge be? I don't think anybody knows right now. I look for a modest amount of growth over the long term as businesses relocate to this area from New Orleans. In a general sense, the growth of a city usually hinges on the ability for businesses to be more competitive (cheaper resources, transportation and a market for their products). Nothing has fundamentally changed in the infrastructure of the city, so I would not expect a large amount of long-term growth. The short-term worries me a bit though. I'm cautiously optimistic that our local leaders can hold things together, but it wouldn?t take much to upset things here. With the crush of people and lack of basic supplies it's a tenuous situation.

Nasib Malangku

2009-03-24T04:10:00.000-07:00

Entah knapa hari ini saya merasakan nasibku sungguh malang.Semua yang saya buat semuanya tidak menjadi dan jadi cepat blur.Saya harap nasibku akan berubah selepas nie.Sesungguhnya kita tidak dapat meramal nasib kita tetapi kita perlu berdoa kepada tuhan.Sekurang-kurangnya dengan amalan doa kita dapat membuatkan hati kita tenang dan tabah dalam mengharungi segala cabaran yang melanda diri kita.

Apa yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya,mungkin itulah yang terjadi kepada diri saya dan myb apa yang berlaku saya blum detect lg.Selagi saya tidak perasan,selagi itu masalah melanda diri ini.Saya harap saya dapat mengubah nasib bukan semua cuma kalau boleh mau ubah ckit2.Takda apa2 yang saya dapat ungkapankan melainkan teruskan berdoa.Saya harap nasib saya akan jadi lebih baik selepas ini.May god bless me always.Amen.

Visit HICOM

2009-03-19T22:35:00.000-07:00

Ohayo gozaimas.Hello,we meet again.Today,i will share about our visiting to HICOM company yesterday.We used UMP bus to go there.We arrived at HICOM at 2.00 p.m.Then, we assemble at HICOM hall.HICOM officer give a talk as a introduction and told us about law of our vacation.Then,we gather in small group and go to our destination place.We have visit many place at HICOM.One of place that we have visit yesterday is body shop of suzuki.After that,we visit the painting area and car component area.Our visit finish at 4.30 p.m. and we go back to hall.We go back to UMP at 5.00 p.m.I will show the picture of our vacation yesterday..hehe..

posing at suzuki bodypart

future managers!!!

Jaq and me- car promoter

lunch time..haha..

posing together with jaq

what is sport?

2009-02-04T02:18:00.000-08:00

Sport is an activity that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often engaged in competitively. Sports commonly refer to activities where the physical capabilities of the competitor are the sole or primary determiner of the outcome (winning or losing), but the term is also used to include activities such as mind sports (a common name for some card games and board games with little to no element of chance) and motor sports where mental acuity or equipment quality are major factors. Sport is commonly defined as an organized, competitive and skillful physical activity requiring commitment and fair play. Sports differ from games based on levels of organization and profit (not always monetary). Accurate records are kept and updated, while failures and accomplishments are widely announced in sport news.

Show Jumping, an equestrian sport.

In British English, sporting activities are commonly denoted by the collective noun "sport". In American English, "sports" is the term used for more than one specific sport. For example, "football and swimming are my favorite sports", is more natural sounding to an American than "I enjoy sport".

The term is sometimes extended to encompass all competitive activities in which offense and defense are played, regardless of the level of physical activity. Both games of skill and motor sport exhibit many of the characteristics of physical sports, such as skill, sportsmanship, and at the highest levels, even professional sponsorship associated with physical sports. Air sports, billiards, bridge, chess, motorcycle racing, and powerboating are all recognized as sports by the International Olympic Committee with their world governing bodies represented in the Association of the IOC Recognised International Sports Federations.

Sports that are subjectively judged are distinct from other judged activities such as beauty pageants and bodybuilding shows because an activity is being evaluated, rather than the physical attributes of the contestant.

My experience1

2009-02-04T01:15:00.000-08:00

From i was born until now,there is many things that i have made.Actually,the best experience that i can't forget is when i represent my own state for shooting competition.I was involved in shooting sport when i was 15years old.Every evening,i go to lapang sasar,ibu pejabat polis batu kawah for training.When i used a pistol for the first time,i was very nervous and scared.But at the same time i was very excited to shoot the target.I will show the pistol that i was used a few years ago..

This is the first pistol that i used for my training

What u think about my pistol,is it look good for u guys.Well,my first pistol is using the silinder gas.People's can't hear its voice because it used daya tolakan to shoot the target.The bullet is made from titanium so when people shoot u with this pistol,don't worry u will not die.But if u used this pistol to shoot the rat or squirell,conform mati punya la..haha..trust me,i already used my pistol to shoot the rat until tikus 2 berkecai..haha..

This my second pistol for sport pistol competition.

This pistol is high speed pistol.Its also used bullet but at this time we used peluru kapus@peluru hidup.This pistol is quite dangerous if we don't know how to use it.so be careful when want to used itThis pistol is used for long distance target.By using this pistol,we can shoot a target in about 100 meter.

This picture show sarawak shooting team.All the people is this picture is my friend.This picture include my coach and me.hehe..

I think i should stop write right now.When i have a free time,i will update it or myb u guys can wait for my new post,"my experience2"..see u in my new post. take care..hehe..

Life With Love

2009-01-13T21:13:00.000-08:00

Life is full with challenge,but inside the challenge,there is beautiful moment.
The beautiful moment that i talk is about when i fall in love with someone.It's sound crazy,but i really happen to me.Actually,it's not the first time i fall in love but this time i really sure that i really love someone more than myself.i can't wonder how i can fall in love with her.I will keep this secret first until i'm ready to talk about her.

TRUE L..I..F..E

2009-01-11T08:37:00.000-08:00

life is like a fish,
that always swim without feel tired,
In order to find their foods to survive,
but what happen to us,
if we fall once,
we think that we will be fall againt,
without any effort and aims,
is that true?
just ourself can answer this question..
so now we should change ourself,
from bad to be good,
from fool to be clever,
in order to be a good person in our life.
it's not to late for us to change our destiny
just think about it carefully
and you will find the answer inside your heart.

kisah odopku..

2008-10-30T11:18:00.000-07:00

sok isit nog ku ayuh,ku alit cja wat tih..doik puan oni d yak terjadi duk oku tih..idipku itih begitu sunyi cja sok nouh geh..pakke adin ku rasa idipku doik sunyi tiak sbb ku oggi bogo dingan dati n oggi nyaa d palingku nyayang dati..oku doik puan watki yang tanon ttg isi otinku tih sbb bg oku susah oku yak terangkan eh..mok ku terangkan pun,doik nyaa d faham oni d rasa ku adin...oku mmg suka duk nik naan dayung pakke doik puan leh watki..kadang2 suka ,kadang2 idoh..pakke nie cja d dapodku tanon..yoh noh d paling ku nyayang..n oku akan setia duk yoh cja..nog tiak ijok.ith janji oku..wlpn oni2 d berlaku mokuo itih,ku arap oku msh dapod nyayang yoh cja..krn yoh cja nyaa d penting bg oku time tih..yoh kodda penawar kaan oku,semangat bg oku 2 kekuatanku..tanpa yoh,ku rasa idipku itih doik bererti..ku arap dingan2ku d bokon faham 2 ngoroti oni koyuh d yak tanon ku..wlpn susah oku akan suba sabarleh.. tudu dingan2 ku,oku nyayang ingan,ingan kodda ckiek sudikku..jd ku arap mokuo tih tok msh dpd bisamah nog tok graduate tiak sodik..hehhehe..ku arap geh ingan sentiasa chat2 cja..2 gudluck kaan final exam..do the best k..n lov u all..

Ethnic In Sarawak

2008-10-23T00:15:00.000-07:00

A Modern Iban Longhouse, built using new materials and preserving essential features of communal living

Sarawak has more than 40 sub-ethnic groups, each with its own distinct language, culture and lifestyle. Cities and larger towns are populated predominantly by Malays, Melanaus, Chinese, and a smaller percentage of Ibans and Bidayuhs who have migrated from their home-villages for employment reasons. Sarawak is rather distinctive from the rest of Malaysia in that there is only a small community of Indians living in the state.

Dayak Iban

Iban girls dressed in full Iban (women) attire during Gawai festivals in Debak, Betong region, Sarawak

The Ibans form the largest percentage of Sarawak's population, making up some 30%. Reputed to be the most formidable headhunters on the island of Borneo, the Ibans of today are a generous, hospitable and placid people. Because of their history as pirates and fishermen, they were conventionally referred to as the "Sea Dayaks". The early Iban settlers who migrated from Kalimantan (the Indonesian part of Borneo south of Sarawak) set up home in the river valleys of Batang Ai, the Skrang River, Saribas, and the Rajang River. The Ibans dwell in longhouses, a stilted structure comprising many rooms housing a whole community of families.

The Ibans are renowned for their Pua Kumbu (traditional Iban weavings), silver craftings, wooden carvings and beadwork. Iban tattoos which were originally symbols of bravery for the Iban warriors have become amongst the most distinctive in the world.

The Ibans are also famous for their tuak, a sweet rice wine which is served during big celebrations and festive occasions.

Today, the majority of Ibans practice Christianity. However, like most other ethnic groups in Sarawak, they still hold strong to their many traditional rituals and beliefs. Sarawak celebrates colourful festivals such as the Gawai Dayak (harvest festival), Gawai Kenyalang (hornbill festival) penuaian padi and Gawai Antu (festival of the dead).

Chinese

The Chinese first came to Sarawak as traders and explorers in the 6th century. Today, they make up 26% of the population of Sarawak and consist of communities built from the economic migrants of the 19th and early 20th centuries.

The first Chinese (Hakka) migrants worked as labourers in the gold mines at Bau or on plantations. Through their clan associations, business acumen and work ethic, the Chinese organised themselves economically and rapidly dominated commerce. Today, the Chinese are amongst Sarawak's most prosperous ethnic groups.

The Sarawak Chinese belong to a wide range of dialect groups, the most significant being Hakka, Hokkien, Foochow, Teochew, Cantonese and Henghua. Hokkien, Hakka, Foochow and Mandarin are the most widely spoken dialects. The Chinese maintain their ethnic heritage and culture and celebrate all the major cultural festivals, most notably Chinese New Year and the Hungry Ghost Festival. The Sarawak Chinese are predominantly Buddhists and Christians.

Malay

The Malays make up 21% of the population in Sarawak. Traditionally fishermen, these seafaring people chose to form settlements on the banks of the many rivers of Sarawak. Today, many Malays have migrated to the cities where they are heavily involved in the public and private sectors and taken up various professions. Malay villages (kampungs) - a cluster of wooden houses on stilts, many of which are still located by rivers on the outskirts of major towns and cities, play home to traditional cottage industries. The Malays are famed for their wood carvings, silver and brass craftings as well as traditional Malays textile weaving with silver and gold thread (kain songket).

Malays are Muslim by religion, having brought the faith to Asia some 600 years ago. Their religion is reflected in their culture and art and Islamic symbolism is evident in local architecture - from homes to government buildings.

Melanau

The Melanaus have been thought to be amongst the original settlers of Sarawak. Originally from Mukah (the 10th Administrative Division as launched in March 2002), the Melanaus traditionally lived in tall houses. Nowadays, they have adopted a Malay lifestyle, living in kampong-type settlements. Traditionally, Melanaus were fishermen and still today, they are reputed as some of the finest boat-builders and craftsmen.

While the Melanaus are ethnically different from the Malays, their lifestyles and practices are quite similar especially in the larger towns and cities where most Melanau have adopted the Islamic faith.

The Melanaus were believed to originally worship spirits in a practice verging on paganism. Today most of them are Muslim and some are Christians, though they still celebrate traditional animist festivals such as the annual Kaul Festival.

Dayak Bidayuh

Concentrated mainly on the West end of Borneo, the Bidayuhs make up 10% of the population in Sarawak are now most numerous in the hill counties of Bau and Serian, within half and hour drive from Kuching.

Historically, as other tribes were migrating into Sarawak and forming settlements (particularly the Malays from the neighbouring archipelagos as they shore up along the coastal areas and riversides) the peace-loving, meek-natured Bidayuhs retreated further inland, hence earning them the name of "Land Dayaks n land owners". The word Bidayuh in itself literally means "land people" in Biatah dialect. In Bau-Jagoi/Singai dialect, the pronunciation is "Bidoyoh" which also carry the same meaning.
The traditional community construction of the Bidayuh is the "baruk", a roundhouse that rises about 1.5 metres off the ground. It serves as the granary and the meeting house for the settlement's community. Longhouses were typical in the olden days, similar to that of the Ibans.
Typical of the Sarawak indigenous groups, the Bidayuhs are well-known for their hospitality, and are reputed to be the best makers of tuak, or rice wine. they also do arak tenuk,some kind of xo.
The Bidayuhs speak a number of different but related dialects. To some Bidayuhs they either speak English (thanks to the British colonial era ((James Brook)) or Malay as lingua franca. While some of them still practice traditional religions, the majority of modern-day Bidayuhs have adopted the Christian faith.

Dayak Orang Ulu

The phrase Orang Ulu means upriver people and is a term used to collectively describe the numerous tribes that live upriver in Sarawak's vast interior. Such groups include the major Kayan and Kenyah tribes, and the smaller neighbouring groups of the Kajang, Kejaman, Punan, Ukit, and Penan. Nowadays, the definition also includes the down-river tribes of the Lun Bawang, Lun Dayeh(mean upriver/far upstream), Murut, Berawan, Saban as well as the plateau-dwelling Kelabits. The various Orang Ulu groups together make up roughly 5.5% of Sarawak's population. The Orang Ulu are artistic people with longhouses elaborately decorated with murals and woodcarvings. They are also well-known for their intricate beadwork detailed tattoos. The Orang Ulu tribe can also be identified by their unique music - distinctive sounds from their sape, a stringed instrument not unlike the mandolin.

A vast majority of the Orang Ulu tribe are Christians but old traditional religions are still practiced in some areas.

Some of the major tribes making up the Orang Ulu group include :

Young Malaysian playing the sape.

Dayak Kayan

There are approximately 15,000 Kayans in Sarawak. The Kayan tribe built their longhouses in the northern interiors of Sarawak midway on the Baram River, the upper Rejang River and the lower Tubau River, and were traditionally headhunters. They are well known for their boat making skills, which they carve from a single block of belian, the strongest of the tropical hardwoods.

Although many Kayan have become Christians, some are still practise paganistic beliefs, but these are very rare today.

Dayak Kelabit

With a population of approximately 3000, the Kelabit are inhabitants of Bario - a remote plateau in the Sarawak Highlands, slightly over 1,200 meters above sea level. The Kelabits form a tight-knit community and practise a generations-old form of agriculture. Famous for their rice-farming, they also cultivate a variety of other crops which are suited to the cooler climate of the Highlands of Bario.

The Kelabit are predominantly Christian, the Bario Highlands having been visited by Christian missionaries many years ago.

Dayak Kenyah

There are few findings on the exact origin of the Kenyah tribe. Their heartland however, is Long San, along the Baram River. Their culture is very similar to that of the Kayan tribe with whom they live in close association. The typical Kenyah village consists of only one longhouse and the people are mainly farmers, planting rice in burnt jungle clearings. With the rapid economic development, especially in timber industry, many of them work in timber camps.

Dayak Penan

The Penan are the only true nomadic people in Sarawak and are amongst the last of the world's hunter-gatherers. The Penan make their home under the rainforest canopy, deep within the vast expanse of Sarawak's virgin jungle. Even today, the Penan continue to roam the rainforest hunting wild boar and deer with blowpipes. The Penan are skilled weavers and make high-quality rattan baskets and mats. The traditional Penan religion worships a supreme god called Bungan. However, the increasing number who have abandoned the nomadic lifestyle for settlement in longhouses have converted to Christianity.

Sarawakians practice a variety of religions, including Islam, Christianity, Chinese folk religion (a fusion of Buddhism, Taoism, Confucianism and ancestor worship) and animism. Many converts to Christianity among the Dayak peoples also continue to practice traditional ceremonies, particularly with dual marriage rites and during the important harvest and ancestral festivals such as Gawai Dayak, Gawai Kenyalang and Gawai Antu.

Sebob/Chebob

One of the least known tribes in Sarawak and be found in upper Tinjar river. Sebob are the first Tinjar settlers along the Tinjar river and it is said that the other tribes came later(migrated) The sebob/chebob tribes occupies up to 6 six longhouse in Tinjar namely; Long Loyang, Long Batan, Long Selapun, Long Pejawai,and Long Subeng.(All these names come from small stream where they lived) Amongst the longhouses, Long Luyang is the longest and most populated Sebob/Chebob settlement.It comprises almost 100 units. Most of these people have migrated and found work in the cities.

Gud bye grandmother!!!

2008-10-21T20:28:00.000-07:00

Since yesterday and now,feel sad because i always thinking about you,my late grandmother..actually,she is my good grandmother and important person to me..She teach a lot before about life,culture and always smile while looking at me..Yesterday,when she pass away..i don't know how to do..i feel very sad and at the same time i always crying since my cousin sms me and to me about what happen to her.My mind is blurr and i decide to go back to sarawak..but i cancel my plan because i have something to do..beside that,our final exam will come soon,so better i stay here and prepare for final exam.Nothing i can say to you grandmother except say sorry because i can't go back to give you the last respect..i miss you so much grandmother..i hope you bless me in whatever i do..i know you always watching at me..gudbye for forever..

Adventure to mallaca

2008-10-21T20:23:00.000-07:00

Moving along the west coast of peninsular Malaysia, our next destination is Malacca. This city was once ruled by the Portuguese, the Dutch, and the English. So again, there is a mix of cultures in this city, adding the remains of those colonial powers to the Malay, Chinese, and Indian culture.

Getting there

In the crowded main bus terminal of Kuala Lumpur, the bus to Malacca is easily found. Different companies have air-conditioned buses leaving every half hour. After a 2,5 hour journey we are dropped off in the heat at the express bus terminal of Mallacca. The local buses are a building away, but we can only get there after waiving 4 touts of different guesthouses.

After finding local bus number 17, we squeeze ourselves on the back seat and try to recognize the route. Without much success until we suddenly see a large windmill and on the other side the Stadthuys. This is Holland in Malaysia, in other words Malacca. A little later the large mall appears, so we know we have to get out on the next stop.

Traveller’s Lodge

Our chosen guesthouse is also easily found and we take our time to install ourselves. The owner is very friendly and helps us to find out where the former English base Chaah must have located, where Sabine’s dad stayed back in 1946. Unfortunately, the base is completely gone and cannot easily be found, so we decide not to visit there.

Mudskippers

In the afternoon we explore the surroundings. We are in the outskirts of Mallacca, a part that has been gained from the sea (how very Dutch!!). We take a look at the sea, where it currently is low tide. The part between the quay and a new island gained from the sea, is almost completely muddy. An enormous amount of mudskippers and crabs are active on it. Mudskippers are fish adapted for living on the mud for short periods of time. They move on their fins from pool to pool. And they are defending their territory fiercely. We enjoy the sight of that scene for a while until we move back.

The Tourist route through Malacca

The next day we decide to follow the tourist route through Mallacca. First we head for the Stadthuys, which is Dutch for city hall. The appearance is not really Dutch, in contrast to the windmill opposite to it. The red color is added by the English, maybe that’s why. The Christ Church, despite its name built by the Dutch, at least has a Dutch bell shaped façade. In the church, there are some Dutch gravestones, although most of them are English.

After shooting some pictures, we head for the maritime museum. It is partly located in a rebuilt Portuguese ship. The exhibition shows the history of Malacca. We learn that it already was a flourishing Malay harbour when the Portuguese conquered it. They tried to monopolise the trade, causing the Malay and other traders to move to other places. The Dutch didn’t like it either, so the defeat the Portuguese, only to apply the same policy, this time allowing only Dutch trade. But since most of the Dutch trade was concentrated around Batavia (current day Jakarta in Indonesia), Malacca more and more decayed. Because of the occupation of Holland by the French, the English took over, but since they had Singapore and Georgetown as their main harbors, Malacca never flourished again.

After lunch we continue our walk uphill, to St. Paul church on Bukit (hill) St. Paul. This church was built by the Portuguese, but most of the tombstones are Dutch. It is impressive to read them, since most of them died young, as victims of malaria or other tropical diseases.

A Famosa

Descending the hill, we arrive at the remains of the once mighty Portuguese fort A Famosa. The fort was almost completely destroyed by the English when they thought they had to return Malacca to the Dutch after the French occupation of Holland. What remains is one of the gates, in which the Dutch embedded the symbol of the VOC (the United East Indian Company).

Under the gate, we meet some locals. They tell us that tourism has declined here since September 11. They cannot understand, since Malaysia and the muslim Malay people have nothing against the western world. We agree, we didn’t find any sign of hate against western people during our stay in Malaysia.

Independence

Last item on our route is the independence museum. Here, Malaysia’s road to independence is shown. After retreat of the Japanese in the second world war, the English came back. They only resistance to that came from the communists, also the strongest group of resistance against the Japanese. The rest of the Malay people, however, fought with the English, since there already was an agreement about the gradual retreat of the English, and Malaysian independence.

But that road to independence wasn’t very simple, judged by the retreat of Brunei and Singapore from the Malaysian federation, and the odd status of Sabah and Sarawak on the island of Borneo. But he emphasis of the museum is on the triumph tour of the Malay delegacy, that made the independent agreements in London. And, of course, the declaration of independence itself, with the ceremonial raising of the flag on Merdeka (freedom) square in Kuala Lumpur.

At night we watch the sound and light show, also showing the history of Malacca, and the independence. But it is not very spectacular.

Shopping and temple watching in Chinatown

The next day we visit Jonker street, with its many antique shops. We see old record players and sowing machines, amongst other stuff. Also many souvenir shops of course, with especially many miniature colonial ships. We resist the temptation, we remember from China how difficult it is to get these home in one piece.

From Jonker street we move on into Chinatown. Again, many Chinese temples here, and we take a look inside at one of them. Again, multiple altars, where offers are brought. But they also predict the future here. For a payment people get a kind of dice and/or a box of sticks. The box is ritually shaken, until a few sticks fall out, and the dice are thrown. The results are brought to the desk, where, depending on the score, a note is given with a prediction or fate on it. Strange people, those Chinese…

We also visit a Hindu temple and a mosque, both in the same street in Chinatown. The fact that those are in the same street is an indication of the peaceful mix of the different religions and people in Malaysia. The people are proud of that, too, and leave no opportunity to mention it. In other places in the world, however, there is enough proof that certain conditions can easily change the attitude to once peaceful neighbors. But we keep those thoughts to ourselves.

Taking the bike

As an alternative for sightseeing, we decided to be active for a change. So we decided to book a cycling tour around Malacca. With five other people, we cycled along rubber and palm oil plantations. We see the locals tapping rubber and cutting the fruit from 15 meter high palm oil trees. Our guide also shows us many spices growing near the roads. It was actually more a spice tour than a cycling tour, but quite interesting.

Besides the many sights and the rich history in Malacca, for us it is also a place to relax. It is nice and quiet here, and our guesthouse has the right feel to it. At night, we enjoy a movie, or the company of other travellers. We even join a drinking game with some youngsters, but we stop in time and from the their looks the next morning, that was a wise decision.

Entertainment

2008-10-21T20:17:00.000-07:00

A mime working for tips entertaining crowd in Paris, France

Entertainment is an activity designed to give people pleasure or relaxation. An audience may participate in the entertainment passively as in watching opera or a movie, or actively as in games.^[1]

The playing of sports and reading of literature are usually included in entertainment, but these are often called recreation, because they involve some active participation beyond mere leisure

The industry that provides entertainment is called the entertainment industry.

Examples of entertainment

Animation

Wikipe-tan sailor fuku is a character in Japanese animation.

Animation provides moving images that are generated by an artist, in contrast to the live action normally used in motion pictures. It is typically accompanied by a sound track consisting of recordings of live actors. Animation is often used in computer-based forms of entertainment.

Cartoons are a comedic form of animation.^[2] Anime or TV manga refers to animation originating from Japan in the Occidental use of the word. In Japan the word refers to all animation. It may contain adult themes and futuristic locations.^[3]

Cinema

Cinema provides moving pictures as an art form. Cinema may also be called films or movies.^[4] A film produces an illusion of motion by presenting a series of individual image frames in rapid succession. Films are produced by a crew that handle the cameras, sets and lighting. The cast consists of actors who appear in front of the camera and follow a script. After the film has been shot, it is edited then distributed to theaters or television studios for viewing.

Theatre

Theatre encompasses live performance such as plays, musicals, farces, monologues and pantomimes.

Circus act - fire breather

Circus

Circus acts include acrobats, clowns, trained animals, trapeze acts, hula hoopers, tightrope walkers, jugglers, unicyclists and other stunt-oriented artists.^[5]

Circuses are a great place for families.

Comedy

Comedy provides laughter and amusement. The audience is taken by surprise, by the parody or satire of an unexpected effect or an opposite expectations of their cultural beliefs. Slapstick film, one-liner joke, observational humor are forms of comedy which have developed since the early days of jesters and traveling minstrels.^[6]

Comics

Felix the Cat Comic Strip

Comics comprise of text and drawings which convey an entertaining narrative.^[7] Several famous comics revolve around super heroes such as Superman, Batman. Marvel Comics and DC Comics are two publishers of comic books. Manga is the Japanese word for comic and print cartoons.

Caricature is a graphical entertainment. The purpose may vary from merely putting smile on the viewers face, to raising social awareness, to highlighting the moral vices of a person being caricaturised.

Dance

Dancing

Dance refers to movement of the body, usually rhythmic and to music,^[8] used as a form of expression, social interaction or presented in a spiritual or performance setting. Dance includes ballet, cancan, charleston, Highland fling, folk dance, sun dance, modern dance, polka and many more.^[9]

Reading

Reading comprises the interpretation of written symbols.^[10] An author, poet or playwright sets out a composition for publication to provide education or diversion for the reader. The format includes paperback or hard cover books, magazines, periodicals, puzzle books, crossword magazines and coloring books. Fantasy, horror, science fiction and mystery are forms of reading entertainment.

Games

Playing Bingo

Games provides relaxation and diversion usually following a rule set. Games may be played by one person for their own entertainment, or by a group of people. Games may be played for achievement or money such as gambling or bingo. Racing, chess or checkers may develop physical or mental prowess. Games may be geared for children, or may be played outdoors such as lawn bowling. Equipment may be necessary to play the game such as a deck of cards for card games, or a board and markers for board games such as Monopoly, or backgammon.^[11] A few may be ball games, Blind man's bluff, board games, card games, children's games, Croquet, Frisbee, Hide and seek, Number games, Paintball, and Video games to name a few.

Friendship and love...

2008-10-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

Actually,no one know who is me...if they know,i think they just know a litter bit about me.From child until now,i don't realize what the is important think in my life..mybe friendship,my love or mybe something else..To me both are impotant..Friends always surport me and give me a motivation whatever i do..whether they are bad or good,i always thought them as my good friends.Besides that,love also important to me..love is a feeling with someone..if you are in love,you will know what i try to explain about..i also have a person that i love so much..i love her more than i love myself..because she give me a feeling that never forget..if i saw her,i probably feel nervous and blurr..i always dreaming about her too..i know people will think that is crazy..people who in love should be srong,patient,trust each other and loving..i hope people will realize what is the important of friendship and love in our life..Hence,our life fullnest with a good memories,so enjoy our life k...

le tour to mallaca

2008-10-02T10:03:00.000-07:00

hi...everybody...whatsut u guys....hope u all always in good condition....here,i want to make a conclusion about my journey to melaka on last sunday..i don't have many word to say bcoz i think my friends have wrote down their experience along our journery to mallaca...i think my journey is good bcoz there is many place that we go and we always take a picture at mallaca...beside that,we stay in apartment at malacca with a standard price...the apartment is really condusif and comfortable for us..therefore,there is chinese cafe which selling chinese foods..we have a dinner,launch and breakfast at chinese cafe..i also enjoy when we drink beer together in apartment...i laugh at nick when he was drunk...his act like a star near the road.ha...it's so funny when i saw nick was drunk...there is many memories at mallaca..i will always keep it as my experience..i think u all should see the picture below...see it and think about it k..he...

Mata Sehat...

2008-09-12T09:38:00.001-07:00

Untuk para pengguna komputer entah karena urusan pekerjaan atau sekedar urusan pribadi seperti maen games or browsing di internet ato juga chating ma temen2 di dunia maya pastinya dalam sehari bisa “betah” berjam2an di depan layar monitor (YOI GAK???)… Nah sadar atopun tanpa sadar mungkin qta tau bahayanya berlama2 di depan komputer… Apa tuh???

Salah satu masalahnya adalaha keretakan retina karena pancaran radiasi gelombang beta yang ditimbulkan oleh monitor komputer. Monitor komputer produksi mulai tahun 2004 telah menyertakan sebuah komponen silikon radioaktif lemah (grup metalloids) yang mampu membuat warna XVGA lebih cerah dengan biaya yang murah. pancaran radioaktif ini akan terus aktif hingga meluruh habis selama 20 tahun. Kerusakan pada mata memang tidak serta merta, tetapi bersifat gradual.

Lalu bagaimana tips jitu untuk menangkal permasalahan yang berhubungan dengan mata?????

Selalu isitirahatkan mata dengan cara menutup mata tiap 3 jam berkomputer selama 5 menit. Inget????… biar inget pasang alarm tiap 3 jam.. lama2 terbiasa sendiri untuk mengistirahatkan mata..

Nah selama 5 menit istirahat itu, kamu bisa memandang birunya langit atau hijaunya pepohonan (itu kalo dari tempat kerjamu ada pohon dan bisa liat pemandangan diluar) knapa harus melihat yang berbau keindahan?? Karena kalo pas buka jendela trus ngeliatnya jalanan kota yang macet bin semrawut, mata qta malah tambah mumet…

Stop negative thoughts

2008-09-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

"How do I stop my negative thoughts?" - is a question that I have been asked many times. If you have ever asked this question then you will feel such enormous relief in knowing the answer, because it is so simple. How do you stop negative thoughts? You plant good thoughts!

When you try to stop negative thoughts, you are focusing on what you don't want - negative thoughts - and you will attract an abundance of them. They can never disappear if you are focused on them. The "stop" part is irrelevant - the negative thoughts are your focus. It doesn't matter if you are trying to stop negative thoughts or control them or push them away, the result is the same. Your focus is on negative thoughts, and by the law of attraction you are inviting more of them to you.

The truth is always simple and it is always easy. To stop negative thoughts, just plant good thoughts! Deliberately plant good thoughts! You plant good thoughts by making it a daily practice to appreciate all the things in your day. Appreciate your health, your home, your family, your job, your friends, your surroundings, your meals, and the magnificent beauty of the day. Compliment, praise, and give thanks to all things. Every time you say "Thank you" it is a good thought! As you plant more and more good thoughts, the negative thoughts will be wiped out. Why? Because your focus is on good thoughts, and what you focus on you attract.

So don't give any attention to negative thoughts. Don't worry about them. If any come, make light of them, shrug them off, and let them be your reminder to deliberately think more good thoughts now. The more good thoughts you can plant in a day, the faster your life will be utterly transformed into all good. If you spend only one day speaking of good things and saying "Thank you" at every single opportunity, you will not believe your tomorrow. Deliberately thinking good thoughts is exactly like planting seeds. As you think good thoughts you are planting good seeds inside you, and the Universe will transform those seeds into a garden of paradise. How will the garden of paradise appear? As your life!

friends!!!friends!!!

2008-09-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

what make me be a better person?

do u know the answer?

no..right...

so let me told u the answer..

the answer is simple..

u can know it from my personality...

but the answer still not correct..

the truth is my friend make me be a better person..

bcoz my friends teach me more about erti kehidupan yang sebenarnya.ha...

so i want to give thanks to all of my friend that always surpport me in whatever i do..

tak kira susah ataupun senang janji rock beb..

nyak nya bulih..ha..

thank u friends!!!

thanks bcoz make me as your friend..

thanks nick,cad,ven,jayz,atun,jeremy,zila and peter..

so i hope we will be friend for forever..

and gud luck to u all..he..

Adventure at KL

2008-08-22T00:58:00.000-07:00

Last saturday is the day that me and my friends arrive to KL. On that morning,i think around 8.00 am,my friends and i gather into group at kafe.Before we leave,we makes a check with things that we brought to KL.Jeremy and me use the transnational bus while other friends(mit,atun,jes,boi,iko and au) use the Maraliner bus.Other friends arrive KL at 2.00pm while jeremy and i arrive KL at 4.00 pm.Other friends stay at casavilla inn while Jeremy and i stay at my uncle's house.

On saturday night,around 10.00pm,my uncle brought Jeremy and i go to Titiwangsa Lake.When we arrive Titiwangsa Lake,i was shock bcoz i saw eye of malaysia.That was the amazing that i haven't see b4 this.Near the lake,we can see many couple do their activities as ussual.we go home at 11.30pm.

Next day,Jeremy and i stay at Puduraya hotel with other friends.On that day,we have visited many place such as Berjaya Megamall.We go to Berjaya Megamall and other places by using komuter and LRT.We started our visiting at 10.00am and finish our shopping at 9.00pm.Before we came back to our hostel,we having a dinner together at KFC.We arrived at our hostel at 10.30pm.we take a bath first,afterthat we sleep.

On monday,we go to LOHYAT bcoz i want to buy a new handphone.There are many type of handphone at LOTYAT and difficult to me to chose which the best one. i buy sony ericsson K530i with price Rm500.Actually,we have visited many places on that day but i don't remember.sorry k.he..We make a reunion in our room and celebrate it with dinking 3 bottle of beer together.I think on that day we sleep at 1.30am.

Tuesday,19 ogos 2008..we are ready to go back to UMp..we use Maraliner bus to go back to UMp..b4 go back to ump,we go to kuantan first to buy foods and other things we need.we arrived at ump at 3.30 pm.i think its enough to tell u all about our jurney..that all from me,may god bless us in whatever we do.he..cow..

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Define a friend

2008-08-02T08:45:00.000-07:00

Friend can be described as a person who can be friendly with me.If someone want to be my friend,she/he must accept my altitude,personality and physical appearence.Beside that,she/he must be a person that I can trust because I'm going to share most of my inner thoughts and secrets with them.Someone who want to be my has know to keep a confidence, and not exploit my weakness.Furthermore,others qualities that my friend should have is she/he must be honest,understanding,caring,open minded and a patient person.

In my opinion,I think the important characteristic that my friends should have is she/he must be a trustworthy person.That means I mostly like be friendly with someone that I can trust because I think it is easy to make relationship with them.If I want to share about my secret or something,I only want to share with someone that I can trust.

FRIENDS

2008-07-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

What is definition of a friend?

Friends can be described as a people who are caring,friendly,trustworthy,kind,understanding.open minded,patient and can be a good listener to us.
If someone want to be my friend,he/she must be a person who can be friendly with me.That means he/she must be a person who can accept my altitude,my personality and my physical appearence.A friend must be trustworty and honest.When i was sharing my inner thoughts or secret with someone,he/she has to know how to keep confidence and not exploit my weaknesses.Beside that,he/she must be a kind and caring person.That means he/she can give me a surpport when i need their help.Furthermore,he/she must be a patient person.He/she must be patient with my altitude..

SERIBU KENANGAN BERSAMAMU

2008-07-27T23:53:00.000-07:00

Masa berlalu dengan pantas,
Namun segala kenangan kita tetapku ingati,
Tidak kira dimana dikau berada,
Hatiku tetap setia padamu..
Ingatlah sesungguhnya dikau adalah terbaik untuk ku,
Bukan untukku saja tetapi untuk dirimu jua..
Tidak kira berapa lama ku menunggu,
Ku tidak kisah janji dikau kembali
Ku akan tetap setia pada mu oh sayangku
Buat selama-lamanya
Ku harap dikau dapat kembali,
Agar hati ini tidak kesunyian lagi
Supaya dirimu dan diriku bahagia buat selama-lamanya

welcome...

2008-07-27T09:42:00.000-07:00

Hi,nice to meet u!!welcome to my blog..tiada apa yang dpt sy dapat katakan selain mengucapkan selamat berkenalan..sesungguhnya mengenali seseorang adalah lebih baik drpd tidak mengenalinya lansung..friends bring more benefit to us..